’Twas the Night Before your Book Release ...

So … technically my sophomore novel, FROM WINTER’S ASHES, releases on Tuesday, not tomorrow, (thus I’m admitting the title of this post is inaccurate as well as cheesy) but the anticipation is as strong as a restless child counting down the minutes on Christmas Eve, save one BIG difference!

FEAR.

Whether you’ve experienced your own RELEASE Day or you’re simply dreaming of the day, this is a GOOD day. I’m not trying to diminish that. It’s a dream come true in many ways! Like the long awaited birth of a child, you’ve suffered and rejoiced over the changes and the labor pains. You’ve agonized long into many sleepless nights preparing for that beautiful, glorious day when you get to hold your book baby in your hands for the first time. But like any new parent, joy is not often the only emotion you’ll experience. Because while you’ve prepared for this momentous occasion, the work is really just beginning! And the worries? Well, they’re as innate as your desire to shield your baby from bumps and booboos, hurts and heartaches, big and small.

And so, on the (almost) eve of my second “delivery” I’ve got a million things to do. I’m equally excited and nervous about the possibilities. The anticipation is agonizing. I CAN NOT WAIT! And yet, there’s an element of self-doubt that plagues most writers. From first-timers to veterans, sharing your heart on paper is an oddly vulnerable thing. You really can’t predict how your baby will be received. It’s a great unknown. Like a present waiting beneath that tree, you can’t help but wonder what you’re going to get. If the Giver remembered what it was you wanted or if you might not be mature enough to receive that gift.

Well, that day is coming! Someday it will be you on the cusp of release day, teetering on the emotional edge of your highest hopes. And because my book is about winter and is releasing in June, and because I’m ridiculously giddy and possibly terrified, and all kinds of upside-down and inside-out at present, I thought I’d hit you with some of this silliness. Enjoy!

’Twas the night before your book release, and all through your home,

no one else is nervous, your anxiety’s your own.

Do you re-read the words again, find a typo you can’t fix?

Do you close your eyes and try to sleep, with a prayer and a wish?

Did you do enough promotion, or is it all white noise?

Just keep your chin up, hang on to that poise.

Your heart won’t stop racing, your palms are all slick,

Your nails are already down to the quick.

Will they like it? You wonder. Will anyone buy?

Your eyes will be glued to your rank till you cry.

When all of the sudden five stars pop right up!

Someone loves it. They think you’ve got the right stuff.

Oh joy! Oh happiness! Oh writer’s delight!

The bestseller list is already in sight!

But all books aren’t for everyone, and you hold your breath for the day,

Some scathing one star steals your joy right away.

You’ll rejoice and you’ll torture over every review,

wishing they didn’t matter as much as they do.

Your pride will get dinged, other times it’ll sing …

But your book is with readers, the most important thing!

Will anyone find it, will you get lost in the horde,

Only time will tell, meanwhile, you write some more. 

Talk to me... Have you had a release day of your own? Any book release traditions you have or might implement someday? I pretty much drink lots of coffee and stare at my computer all day. Pretty exciting stuff! I'm thinking this time should include cake. Everything is better with cake. :)

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Amy Leigh Simpson writes romantic mysteries with honesty and humor, sweetness and spice, and gritty reality covered by grace. When she’s not stealing moments at naptime to squeeze out a few more adventures in storyland, she’s chasing around two tow-headed miscreants (Ahem)—boys, playing dress up with one sweet princess baby, and being the very blessed wife to the coolest, most swoon-worthy man alive. Amy is a Midwestern-girl, a singer, blogger, runner, coffee-addict, and foodie. Her Sports Medicine degree is wasted patching up daily boo boo’s, but whatever is left usually finds its way onto the page with fluttering hearts, blood and guts, and scars that lead to happily ever after.

Her debut romantic mystery novel WHEN FALL FADES is available now for $4.99! And this coming TUESDAY don't forget to check out the release day *SALE* on book two in the Girl Next Door Series FROM WINTER'S ASHES!

His Perfect Pace at ACFW

Wow. Has it already been eleven days? It seems like yesterday that I was turning onto the highway toward my fourth ACFW conference! And this year, it came full circle...as my first conference was in the same place...Indianapolis. It is at that first conference that I pitched the same characters (cannot call it the same book, now,after three years of rewrites), met the first of my many friends and co-Alleycats, and basically fell in love with the writing community.

The difference between the last 8 hour drive to Indy in 2010, and this one, is I drove it alone this year...didn't drag my family of five(was expecting our fourth), and pawn them off at the Indy zoo, while I ventured to the Hyatt. This year, I was alone with Jesus, listening to His music, and anxiously looking forward to wrapping my arms around my sweet sweet friends.

As I crept closer, my foot grew heavy though, and I sped along the highway, fighting off the old anxious ways of the newbie I once was, and ignoring the signs that were telling me to slow down. I noticed the $375 minimum fine in the work zone, and I saw the orange cones. I kept up with traffic though, surely I wouldn't get caught. It was just a scare tactic...that big chunk of change. I was on a mission to get to ACFW, I wanted to get there fast and feel the happiness of being among friends and writers, and the thrill of showcasing what God has done, to editors. I kept my foot on the pedal, continued at a consistent distance from the car ahead, and slammed on the brakes when the roadside digital display of my speed showed I was 9 miles over and a flash indicated a photo had been taken.
UGH!
I thought I could beat the odds, because I didn't believe they were really keeping track. My biggest excuse being that I was keeping up with traffic...were they going to ticket all of us? But in the end, the ugly truth flashed in front of me and I was not keeping up with the expectations of the law enforcement. I had raced ahead, only to feel the big fat EXPENSIVE slap of defeat.

After attending four conferences, and looking back over how far I've come (maybe not to publication, but to some sort of maturity in the process)...I realize how that traffic incident is a mirror of the writing journey as I first embarked upon it:

Beat the odds: When I wrote my first story, and began to dabble in the writing circles, I honestly thought I would not fall into the "norm" of a long journey toward publication. I poo-pooed the idea of putting my first book in a drawer never to see the light of day. And I thought, "I will show them" when it came to the extensiveness of such an endeavor as publication. Just like my zipping by the warning signs on the road, I zipped by the words of mentors and authors who said, "Writing is not for the faint at heart."

Keeping up with traffic: When I first stepped into an ACFW conference, and pitched my novel, and compared my notes with others, hearing what agents and editors had asked for, wondering why I didn't get asked for that...I began to try and keep up with the traffic so to speak. I decided to write something else, to enter contests, to put that long list of awards beneath my name, to be sure I stalked the white board at the appointments desk each year and rack up the requests. EVEN IF MY STUFF WASN'T READY...I was not going to be left behind without success.

Facing the Ugly truth:  And that truth, just like the failure of maintaining the expected speed on the highway, the ugly truth of my writing journey before this conference, was that all those attempts, all those written words, ALL those rejections, pointed to the truth that I just wasn't ready. I didn't meet the expectations of the editors, and I paid the price of a wounded ego.
This year, after much rejection under my belt, I realize that the ugly truth of trying to beat the odds and speed along in striving toward publication, the ugly truth that I tried to keep up with "traffic" or the success of others, and facing the ugly but WONDERFUL truth that I just wasn't ready before, has led me to a place where cruise control in God's plan is so much more satisfying. I continue to see the lessons he had taught me during the self-induced race before. And now, I am ready to shout out and claim this journey as uniquely my own, at my own God-induced speed!

This year, I leave behind another ACFW conference knowing the importance of abiding, giving my journey to God, and realizing that publication is not the proof of my gift, but a fruit among many on the writing branch in my heart. Yes, there is always that niggle of comparison, that shadow of regret, but if I shake it off, point my heart toward the LIGHT of God's Grace, and release the pressure on that gas pedal toward success, He'll guide me down this road of my dream at His Most Perfect Pace.
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Angie Dicken first began writing fiction as a creative outlet during the monotonous, mothering days of diapers and temper tantrums. She is passionate to impress God's love on women regardless of their background or belief. This desire serves as a catalyst for Angie's fiction, which weaves salvation and grace themes across historical cultures and social boundaries. Angie is an ACFW member and is represented by Tamela Hancock Murray of the Steve Laube Agency.