But she's also brave - because she sent her words out into the world and now they're on the road to publication!
Please help me in welcoming her to our blog today!
A Writer’s Tale:
Once upon a time there was a girl who scribbled fastidiously
for over 20 years. During that time, she amassed full notebooks and USB keys
chockfull of words and ideas. But she was scared. She was scared to show anyone
so she kept these words and ideas under
lock and key.
“What are you writing?” her parents/siblings/friends who ask
as she took pen to paper in the back of a high school classroom, or on the
subway or in a coffee shop. But she
would press her notebook to her chest and gulp her secrecy.
If I tell, then
they’ll know. If I let them see and I am
terrible, then this lovely little secret that is mine and fills my brain and
jolts my nerves and fills my heart with joy…will just fizzle. If these words
are terrible then I am terrible, she equated self-worth with her passion
for inky fingerpads and imagined worlds.
So, she wrote in silence. She wrote in secret. She finished novel after novel.
Two years ago, she decided after hundreds upon hundreds of
books read and thousands upon thousands of words written, that she would
finally take the plunge toward publication.
She mapped out a book that she thought the CBA would like. She measured
it, she populated it with characters and phrases and statements indigenous to
the market she had studied and learned for most of her life. She wandered under the misconception of a
safety net. She sent the book out into
the world. While the first chapters
secured her an agent, the final product was passed at every publishing house in
the CBA. The feedback, rather than
being full of scary rejections that would force her unwillingly back into her
secret cave, was sound and encouraging. She took it to heart for its promise
and not for guided limitation.
And she started writing more, believing ( as she still does)
that a writer should always have
something in their back pocket. Even while her first novel was still making
the rounds of submission and eking its way to committee meetings (alas, to no
avail) her agent sparked a fuse upon return from ICRS and the idea that the
writer infuse her next story with her lifelong passion for Sherlock Holmes.
But this, thought
she, is rather surged with something
close to my heart, the winnows through me, that is so anomalous to me. Can I possibly write something with so much
of me in it?
With no holds barred and with no thought toward rubrics and
metrics, imagined or not, she typed and tapped away and presented the final
work to her agent…
Who was surprised.
What writing classes have you been
taking? Her agent wondered. What has
changed since you first gave me that initial manuscript a year ago?
The writer hadn’t taken any classes. She had done nothing
different except…except…..write a book sizzled
with her personality and heart. A
book sprinkled with shards of her! She wrote a book in her voice, peppered with
her thoughts, pierced with her vulnerabilities, trembling with her desires and
ideas and wonderings.
She wrote it jubilantly….elated with the giddiness of
crafting this sunny world with live, snarky, brilliant, zesty characters whose
strings she jiggled like a puppeteer who just breathed to life. She wrote while snifflingly realizing someday
she would have to send her book friends out into the world with their quirks and
depths and idiosyncrasies. She cried when she finally pressed send. She missed
her book friends as they experienced the rounds of submission and meetings.
But she started something new, aware that…
Writing the book you
want to read now meant splay your
personality on page.
And this crazy book which coloured outside the lines of any
imagined structure the writer thought existed was the project that landed her
first book contract.
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Writers---write for yourselves first and foremost. Be savvy
enough to study the industry, to read voraciously in a myriad of genres, to
stay connected to the community, but write also knowing that what may be
forging your path to publication is your indelible thumbprint.
Write uniquely.
And send that snippet of yourself into the world like
Polonius (“To Thine Own Self Be True”) and see what happens.
It could be something awesome.
And it will be you….all
you.
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Rachel McMillan is a keen history enthusiast and lifelong
bibliophile. When not writing, or reading, she can most often be found drinking
tea and watching British miniseries. Rachel lives in bustling Toronto where she
works in Educational Publishing. She is a frequent contributor to Breakpoint
and Novel Crossing. Her first novel, The
Bachelor Girl’s Guide to Murder releases with Harvest House in early 2016.
Great story. Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteYAY I love this post and can't wait to read your personality-filled books. :)
ReplyDeleteLOVE these words! So true!!!! Can't wait to read your book!
ReplyDeletethanks for letting me hang out here today! i am sure every writer has those chest-clutching moments where they think: goodness! what have i done sending my words out into the big world :)
ReplyDeleteWonderful, Rachel. This made me all smiles! :)
ReplyDeleteSo happy for you, Rachel! Love your voice already!
ReplyDeleteCheers,
Sue
Rachel, what great news about your book contract! I am eager to read your books. I appreciate your encouraging words here today. :)
ReplyDeleteP.S. I loved meeting you at ACFW too!
@Jeanne it was so nice to meet you, too!
ReplyDeleteLove your story! Congrats on your book.
ReplyDeleteRachel,
ReplyDeleteBelieve me - I'm still terrified to believe people are reading my book...and sharing their opinions!
All these little, quiet stories, created in secret are special, personal in a very intimate way, and...well, so much a part of ourselves (our hearts and personalities).
Sheesh! I still get nervous every time I open up a review.
But yes - I don't see how, if a person writes something they love, something for which they feel passionately, it cannot live with the very breath of their personalities!
LOVE this post!
And so thankful you were here!
Great post and SO true. Can't wait to meet the Bachelor Girls next year!
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